As I awaited having my first cup of coffee doing chores—I wondered why or what it was that made me, even to this day of having the urge to save the world... so to speak.
The last two nights before bed I watched nature shows. That’s unusual
for me. It’s usually one night of nature and a science show spread out
once a week. My usual was anything with law, anything heroic, historical
figures, strategies were my preference—I'd begun to prefer series type
shows.
Reading books, I gravitate towards autobiographical, historical people,
events and how they climbed out of the event(s). Finally, this morning I asked
myself, 'What have I been looking for?' What is it in heroism that I feel near
to? Or that I feel is necessary—Heroism, or rescuing, being the rescuer. What
is that about? Why do I still feel the urge since I could ever remember?
I thought that it could be the feel good feeling. It's not about being
known—I like to hide quite often. I like to be hidden. As a whole, I have been
quite often disappointed in people and their actions, or non-actions.
Then this morning it arrived. The answer was comfort. That's what
rescuing does. It brings comfort, hope. All or nearly all the supposition about
humanity falls by the wayside. People for those moments become just damn
awesome. I crave that.
I've always wanted to be an unburdening to life. Enter quietly, do
something good, then leave. It’s as if few know I'd existed. Maybe just leave a
good thought or two that keeps someone afloat.
This all has now brought me to why I despise being around people—socializing. I
love coaching someone, but that's one on one. You're looking someone in
the eye, giving them advice that you've lived. You're hoping they gain from
that advice or method for them to feel the comfort of someone caring enough to
pass on something good.
It doesn't matter where it came from. It’s now just been placed out
there in the world. It’s for the taking. It’s to be given, then taken
again and again. That is the comfort of hope. ---Jody-Lynn Reicher

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