No time to feel.
I replied, "Maybe not. But mourning in public just isn't my style. It's just too intimate for me to do publicly."
Then when you hear other people expressing joy, sadness, other emotions as their children graduate, go to prom, go off to college and so forth. If you're me, you cannot even relate. Why? Because you don't have the time to peruse such emotions. You need to stay stoic, not feel anything. You cannot spare one ounce of energy, changing up and down your emotions with such unabashed freedom. Plain and simple, if you're me you just don't have it. You park it somewhere else inside your mind. You compartmentalize.