Excerpt from, "Not Exactly Don Juan...and the Liberated Woman"

...In my mind's eye I saw blood. I saw body parts. I had already dismantled them in my mind, now all I had to do was finish the job physically, and I would stop at nothing. Not one part of me shook. I was quite confident like never before, that I would walk away unscathed...

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